Hey gang,
So things are not going so well this time around the block. I wanted to let you all know, since I dont get to talk to many of you these days, what is going on with me. I am still at CPC learning bible stuff, let me tell you, I am learning some great stuff there, loving every bit of it. But there is that problem of homework, you see I am not getting all that I need to have done done and handed in, the thing is, Im not getting a great deal done at all. God called me here this year to work with M:180, I firmly believe that, He never said anything about attending CPC this perticular year. And as great a school as I have found it to be, and knowing many great people who have come out of this school prior to attending it, I still felt that it wasn't for me this year. So why am I going? Well, to tell you the truth, it was by recomendation of the boss that I am attending, I was not at all thrilled, but sugestions around here I've come to notice are not really suggestions. Ofcourse, I wwould like not to face another semester of this, but I have to right now it seems.... or do I? I will think about that and get back to you on it.
So why is this all so hard. Well, to be honest once more I do not know how Ashlee is dooing all that she does. It blows me out of the water how strong and determined she is to take on all that lays before her. All the power to ya girl. For those of you who dont know, Ashlee is a fellow intern here at Lawson with M:180 youth ministries and she is dooing a great job. So what is my excuse if she is dooing more than I? I dont know really, but here is the scoop, I dont think it is enough of a reason, but maby I am hard on my self. I am still dealing with this Migrane/headache pain thingy, its there 24/7 constantly causing me unbelievable amounts od discomfort at times, other times it just hurts, and rearely it imcompasatates me from dooing anything what so ever. So I guess making my head pain the center of attention for nine months has made my condition jealouse, and it now wants some of the spot light. For those of you who dont know, I have a condition called Neurocardiogenic Syncope... its not helpful. For the past three days it has been at me, trying to take me down, even now I am having trouble. It likes to make me stop everything I am dooing, even to black out at some points, not cool. Thus far I have been able to slow down and prevent such a black out from occuring, but at this rate I think it is only inevitable that will black out. So is that reason enough, maby, I think I am buisy, and because of the prior I need a lot more rest between activities, I feel like an old man to be honest. One more thing, My docter thinks it is a good ideah to up the dosage on my Pain Supressing medication, it's Amitriptilyne, she doubled it. The thing is is that it has some pretty crazy affects, I have not had any encounters with them before, but today it did affect me a litle. So if you notice please let me know if I am acting a litle wonky, I dont want to be feeling crazy side affects if I a can take other medicatons, more expensive ones, but they are side affects never the less.
So, on to the financial situation. Turns out that I wont be getting my student loan just yet, the one piece of info they want that they said they woudn't be needing they want it now before they realease any funds. So before I let them, I may be able to get out of it. But that will mean no CPC next semester, I get stuck with a three thousand dollar growing debt to the school and no money for africa. Chances are I will be getting them the info they want pronto. And thus I will be in school and africa next semester. I am trying to find another Job, this cleaning buisness is a litle to much to late in the day for me to be dooing right now to be honest with you. Great news, for which I am so very thankfulf for, by bro and sister in Law Leah are now sponsering me, they gave me one hundred dollars yesterday. Such a blessing, my phone bill was due to be paid tomorow and I had six dollars. They wanted to be providing a litle for me for a while now, but until now they were not able. Thank you so much Ty and Leah, you are amazing and I know god will bless you and your ministry there in Deep River Ontario. Love you both deeply. (yes I do talk with them other that this, but I dont know if they read this blog).
On to my life stuff. I am still single, I am still not looking... and thus I am to try and live that way... harder than I thought but I will try harder now. I have many great and awesome friends here in toon town and many in many other places around the country. Love you all dearly and I thank you for your prayers and support. I know I am going through a hard time, but God is with me and I know that your prayers have been my strength in many ways these past few months. Hopefully these alements will pass soon and I will be free to do my homework and laugh and play and all those other great things.
M:180 youth ministries is going well for me, I hope I am still dooing well for it. I can only do what God enables me to do though, that is the truth that I hold to and so I look to God that I may be of help to this ministry as much as God is able through me. We just did another Impact trip, this time to Carlyle SK, it was awesome, my second trip and I loved it greatly. Well, I think I am going to go now, J's office is a mess and I can something about it while I have strength, I may need to lie down after, but oh well. I am still supposed to be young, and I will act like it for as long as I can put on an act right!
Tootles one and all, love you all and I am greatful for your support and prayers. We here at Lawson can always use some extra prayer and support, Like Pastor John says, you cant have spiritual results if yoru not dooing the spiritual work... I think he says that. ofcourse we are praying, but more praying is always welcomed.So things are not going so well this time around the block. I wanted to let you all know, since I dont get to talk to many of you these days, what is going on with me. I am still at CPC learning bible stuff, let me tell you, I am learning some great stuff there, loving every bit of it. But there is that problem of homework, you see I am not getting all that I need to have done done and handed in, the thing is, Im not getting a great deal done at all. God called me here this year to work with M:180, I firmly believe that, He never said anything about attending CPC this perticular year. And as great a school as I have found it to be, and knowing many great people who have come out of this school prior to attending it, I still felt that it wasn't for me this year. So why am I going? Well, to tell you the truth, it was by recomendation of the boss that I am attending, I was not at all thrilled, but sugestions around here I've come to notice are not really suggestions. Ofcourse, I wwould like not to face another semester of this, but I have to right now it seems.... or do I? I will think about that and get back to you on it.
So why is this all so hard. Well, to be honest once more I do not know how Ashlee is dooing all that she does. It blows me out of the water how strong and determined she is to take on all that lays before her. All the power to ya girl. For those of you who dont know, Ashlee is a fellow intern here at Lawson with M:180 youth ministries and she is dooing a great job. So what is my excuse if she is dooing more than I? I dont know really, but here is the scoop, I dont think it is enough of a reason, but maby I am hard on my self. I am still dealing with this Migrane/headache pain thingy, its there 24/7 constantly causing me unbelievable amounts od discomfort at times, other times it just hurts, and rearely it imcompasatates me from dooing anything what so ever. So I guess making my head pain the center of attention for nine months has made my condition jealouse, and it now wants some of the spot light. For those of you who dont know, I have a condition called Neurocardiogenic Syncope... its not helpful. For the past three days it has been at me, trying to take me down, even now I am having trouble. It likes to make me stop everything I am dooing, even to black out at some points, not cool. Thus far I have been able to slow down and prevent such a black out from occuring, but at this rate I think it is only inevitable that will black out. So is that reason enough, maby, I think I am buisy, and because of the prior I need a lot more rest between activities, I feel like an old man to be honest. One more thing, My docter thinks it is a good ideah to up the dosage on my Pain Supressing medication, it's Amitriptilyne, she doubled it. The thing is is that it has some pretty crazy affects, I have not had any encounters with them before, but today it did affect me a litle. So if you notice please let me know if I am acting a litle wonky, I dont want to be feeling crazy side affects if I a can take other medicatons, more expensive ones, but they are side affects never the less.
So, on to the financial situation. Turns out that I wont be getting my student loan just yet, the one piece of info they want that they said they woudn't be needing they want it now before they realease any funds. So before I let them, I may be able to get out of it. But that will mean no CPC next semester, I get stuck with a three thousand dollar growing debt to the school and no money for africa. Chances are I will be getting them the info they want pronto. And thus I will be in school and africa next semester. I am trying to find another Job, this cleaning buisness is a litle to much to late in the day for me to be dooing right now to be honest with you. Great news, for which I am so very thankfulf for, by bro and sister in Law Leah are now sponsering me, they gave me one hundred dollars yesterday. Such a blessing, my phone bill was due to be paid tomorow and I had six dollars. They wanted to be providing a litle for me for a while now, but until now they were not able. Thank you so much Ty and Leah, you are amazing and I know god will bless you and your ministry there in Deep River Ontario. Love you both deeply. (yes I do talk with them other that this, but I dont know if they read this blog).
On to my life stuff. I am still single, I am still not looking... and thus I am to try and live that way... harder than I thought but I will try harder now. I have many great and awesome friends here in toon town and many in many other places around the country. Love you all dearly and I thank you for your prayers and support. I know I am going through a hard time, but God is with me and I know that your prayers have been my strength in many ways these past few months. Hopefully these alements will pass soon and I will be free to do my homework and laugh and play and all those other great things.
M:180 youth ministries is going well for me, I hope I am still dooing well for it. I can only do what God enables me to do though, that is the truth that I hold to and so I look to God that I may be of help to this ministry as much as God is able through me. We just did another Impact trip, this time to Carlyle SK, it was awesome, my second trip and I loved it greatly. Well, I think I am going to go now, J's office is a mess and I can something about it while I have strength, I may need to lie down after, but oh well. I am still supposed to be young, and I will act like it for as long as I can put on an act right!
Oh, Ps: I am feeling much better mentally from the last two blogs I have left. Needed to come before God like I did this morning, no doubt once more my friends prayers were of help to me. Thank you again.
3 comments:
Hey Travbo
Ashmo here, i really feel horrible for everything that are going through buddy. There is a lot on your plate with this migraine alone. I don't know how I do all I do, it is a lot but we all function differently so by no means compare anything you do, because what you are doing is important. You have other things that you need to focus on, like staying alive and sane with a savage migraine that I don't understand the pain of. God will reveal things to you slowly so keep your focus on him.. I’m praying for you buddy, and you know that! You know that you are surrounded by fellow believers that will be there for you if you ask. Any prayer let us know, we are here for you.
Take care buddy.
Hey Trav,
You've been on my heart a lot the last little while and I have not had a chance to e-mail you but I am taking a quick break from getting ready a mid-term tomorrow and thought I would check out your blog, which I do, believe it or not read quite faithfully. I am glad that you are so transparent on this thing but at the same time you keep things that are personal, personal...something I have yet to accomplish with my own blog...maybe if I ever get blogging again...that is have time for it. Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I love you and I miss hanging out. It is so dumb that we live like a 4 minute drive away from eachother and never hang out...that needs to stop! by the way, I understand your ordeal....being on Lawson staff and being a full time student has got to be hard...I find it hard and I am only there once a week! And Ashley...well she is just a well oiled machine...lol. Well this is getting way too long. But be encourage Trav because God's hand is truly on your life and as much as you are feeling blessed in your time of need know that you continue to bless others still. Well feel better because it IS possible! Love your fellow Thompsonite, Jennie!
Trav, I found your blog, I didn't even know you had one, but wow, i didn't realize you were such a deep guy. I know we don't really know each other that well, and I'm really sad to here about how stressed you are with everything in your life. I know that things can pile up, and I know that I don't have even close to that in my life. I hope that you feel you can ask me for prayers if you need and even if you don't ask I'll keep you in my prayers, and have faith for a healing! God can do crazy things.
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