Worlds Apart?

All this space just waits in between you and me
I want to love you now and know that were free
Take my hand and pull us closer to the final place
Why must I need you like a strong tower a base?

Simply wanting to stand through the storm tonight
Strength I know is in your love like warmth in light
Yet I wait for you to come to me as if you desired
It's foolishness to think so now that you've retired

So in these thoughts and weakness I am pained
And realizing I have no freedom thus I’m chained
I need you like the fresh rivers need the open sea
Will I ever hold you again in this place near me?


To be free..

Are we really worlds apart?

Or can I live in your heart?

And the shiny gem falls once more…

Travis Hobbs 00.56.10.28.06

My Attempt for You

Sitting upon these stairs I am driven to dream and wonder

Thinking about all these possibilities of loving you forever

Driven by a heart on fire to the place where passion is power

I simply sit and watch you now till I grow apart and colder

I am confused and dazed by things I wish I could control

Can I not just love you now in this moment till the bell toll?

So it is with fervor I chase after your heart mind and soul

Leaving all behind I run toward thee fast as an anchored pole

Now it is you I think that has all the answers in your head

You look after me ever never stopping until I reach my stead

I know it is with you in your life that I wish always to be led

Seeking you forever like all other’s have promised and said

It is with you that my heart is found

The embodiment of true beauty

Fulfilled by perfection

I love you

Travis P. Hobbs [01.10.10.24.06]

Scenery

Check this out, you take a look in a mirror and you see this vast mountain range with a setting sun behind it, and a vast jungle that lay before it. How beautiful you think, my life is so organized, it is such a nicely painted picture. There the mountains, those are my freinds and family, my priorities are right for they stand above the rest. The jungle and its powerful eternal rives flow, that is my carreer, it fills my day and gives me purpose as I over look it all. It fills me with a feeling of completeness. But ofcourse, there is the most important part of my life picture, the setting sun, so beautiful and so praiseworthy. That has to be God. That is Jesus!

Wow, it really sounds like a beautiful picture doesn't it? Like a life that is on track to the right place for the right reasons, doesn't it? I mean, God is above it all, He is the center peice of the whole painting. Well, whats the problem! Umm, well, let us look at it again, what is the sun dooing? Its setting isn't it! Why?

Looks to me like we do have a problem folks. I hope you dont identify with this painting as much as I do, we are on this road getting our priorities in order. Dooing what we need to do to serve God with our full potential. I think we are getting something wrong, that sun should not be setting. If it is setting in your life, if it seems that it has done all it really needs to do in our lives and now its time for the rest of the world too see it cause Im perfect, than were wrong. Ponder this, the mountains are too high, the jungle is too vast, the rivers are too strong. In comparision folks we have let God become just another part of the painting that is our life. When in fact we should tear that painting apart, why? It should not consist of mountains, vallys, jungles, rivers, or sky! It should just be a picture of a bright sun, nothing around it! Why, well, God is too great, friend, to be a part of your 'life picture', do you really realize who God is, I dont. Do really understand what, in its intierity, God has done for you, I dont think I do! God needs to be God, and if we are to even attempt to live our live's to be Christ-like, than we need to shape up and put God back where He belongs. I am saying this. We always seem to get idolizing right, spending our every moment in it, constantly thinking, wondering about what we are dooing and how it will affect your idol plans. Get it straight, if thats how we idolize, than idolize GOD! Our life picture will be more of a goal, something we paint and put on the wall and stare at constantly, our life needs to be like Jesus, like that picture of the bright and perfect sun, and noting but that sun!

Thoughts from a Rabbit.

If you havn't yet, read the next blog, if you have, do it again, and think about it!

Tear My World Apart

I look beyond the empty cross

forgetting what my life has cost

and wipe away the crimson stains

and dull the nails that still remain

More and more I need you now,

I owe you more each passing hour

the battle between grace and pride

I gave up not so long ago

So steal my heart and take the pain

and wash the feet and cleanse my pride

take the selfish, take the weak,

and all the things I cannot hide

take the beauty, take my tears

the sin-soaked heart and make it yours

take my world all apart

take it now, take it now

and serve the ones that I despise

speak the words I can't deny

watch the world I used to love

fall to dust and thrown away

I look beyond the empty cross

forgetting what my life has cost

so wipe away the crimson stains

and dull the nails that still remain

so steal my heart and take the pain

take the selfish, take the weak

and all the things I cannot hide

take the beauty, take my tears

take my world apart, take my world apart

I pray, I pray, I pray

take my world apart

Most of what I want to pour out...

It has been awhile since I have come on here and poured out what has been on my mind. It's generaly interesting... atleast for me when I do this. I find that my life can be quite humorous, often in cruel ways. So, I hope this isn't a boaring read for you, I hope I can be honest, and I hope I say only what I can say.

So I came to Thompson for my week off from school. Was it the right thing to do? I dont know, the thing is is that I had a few reasons that may have kept me in Toon Town. I have my reasons for leaving. Did I make a great choice, well, just being here has given me reasons to not have come, sadly. But I have had time to relax, I very much dislike being unable to do something, unable to function. I realize that I need my rest, for body and for mind, but I really do not want to have to deal with this migrane any longer... you know? It sucks. I like to push and hold nothing back, I simply rest when I am told to. Is this the life for me? I dont know, my hearts cry is for another one. Ooh, thats right, you heard me, I have a desier for a differnt life. A life that envolves unwaivering commitment, intense self disapline, a will to not let anything stop me or hold me back, a life without fear of anything. I want to be that. How or by what means?... you may be thinking. I want to be... all that I can be. Lol, I just pulled out an overused slogan. Well, not that that is off my mind.

Have you ever done something that you knew, or atleast you thought, was the right thing to do but you felt intierly embaressed/guilty/sick over it? I have had to do alot more of that than I like to do. Denying myself, as I should, things and relationships that I want so I can be nearer to God. I want that, to be in a realationship with God that is benificial to the kingdom. But the thing is, as much as I knew it, people will get hurt and offended by what I live and do. Trust me, if you are one of those people, I probly did not want to do what I did, I simply had to. Do you know how badly I wanted to simply not go to Saskatoon this fall? Of course, ok this is complicated, I wanted badly to be in Toon Town this year to study and serve God, its what I do. But I really felt that I needed a break, the first week of class, infact it was still orientation, I walked into my room and sat on the floor and proceeded to break down. I cried, yes I am a litle weak at times. Some have said I look like Clark Kent, probaly more when I had hair, but to prove my point I am not super man. I was physically in pain, mentally tired and exhausted, I wanted to take a full load this year, I wanted to do all that I could to go that mile further this year. But I couldn't, Im not sure I can even do this year as it is, I need my structure, constantly. I feel I have very litle right now. So I guess I am to make it my mission to find a litle structure and do what it takes to make myself stronger, what good am I without strength and endurance?

Onto to a different aproach, God wants us to be weak and broken before Him. Than He can do what He needs to do make me into what He needs me to be to do what He has planed for my life relying on His strength. Ofcourse, I must realize that I live that life right now, that in every step of that life I learn more about living it for Him. So I am here, right now, I hope I am there. There are people I cant understand right now, you know I really really want to know those people, befriend them. The thing is is that I can only do what God allows me to do, and in some cases what people will allow me to do and have grace with me over. And so I bow down and follow the call through the bitter to the end.

My next step will be to return to Toon Town, do what I can to keep my assingments on time, learn all that I can, and share that with the youth at M:180. I am looking forward to the rest of this year, as much of a stretching experince it will be, and it never should be anything less if we are dooing things right, it will be a good experince. As hard as always having to face offence is, it is important that we realize unless we want to stay at a nice comfy spot with God, where you can be less of all that you can be, that you need to go out and find something that God wants you to do and be stretched and challanged by it. Relize when you make it to Heaven you can realx and have it in your mind that you have done all that you can to reach the people of the world, the normal ones.

If this made sence or not, it is what it is.
Tootles one and all,
TraV

Love Song For A Savior

Jars Of Clay

In open fields of wild flowers,
she breathes the air and flies away
She thanks her Jesus for the daises and the roses
in no simple language
Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all
He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close as a heartbeat or a song on her lips
Someday she'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call her and she will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and she'll pray,

"I want to fall in love with You"

Sitting silent wearing Sunday best
The sermon echoes through the walls
A great salvation through it calls to the people
who stare into nowhere, and can't feel the chains on their souls

He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close as a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday we'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call us and we will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we'll pray,

"I want to fall in love with You"

It seems too easy to call you "Savior",
Not close enough to call you "God"
So as I sit and think of words I can mention
to show my devotion

"I want to fall in love with You"

"my heart beats for You"

Disappear

Jars Of Clay - Eleventh Hour - Disappear

I watch you smile
You steal the show
You take a bow
The curtain falls in front of you
You're magical, on display
I gaze into your eyes and
You turn to look the other way

But I'd really love to know
I'd really love to climb
My way into your heart
And see what I could find
I'd walk into your skin
Swim through your veins
See it from your eyes
I'd really love to try...yeah

Standing still, but in my mind
Trying to escape
Looking for a place to hide
Well it's not safe but I'm so near
Invading every place you go
To disappear

I'd really love to know
I really want to climb
Into your soul
Walk into your skin
Swim through your veins
See it from your eyes
I'd really love to try
I'd really love to try

Yeah...yeah...yeah...try

Yeah I wanna get inside the you
You're hiding from
Yeah I wanna get inside the you
You're hiding from
I wanna get inside the you
That you are hiding from

Journey

Well, I am about to embark upon the great Bus Ride to Thompson MB. Good old times on that bus, that oh so long bus ride. I cant wait... rather I can and I do want to, but I press on. There are a few things and people I would like to stick around here for, but I simply think that is my selfish self... I think. What would I gain by staying. Less sleep and litle work done. My thoughts would be elsewhere, dwelling with other people and events. My hands than useless since I do not controll them, they sit there growing cold and alone.

Drawing a blank...

I sure am. I mean to say that I can not be entirely honest about what is bothering me for the nature of it does not simply include myself. Gosh! My mind is racing, my dreams and thoughts have been captivated and as I was lost in them, they were stolen. Simply for the use of the attack upon my heart, ripped from my chest and on display in a dark room. Cold there it waits, for what? Someone to love it and bring me back to life, or someone to stomp all over it and send me away, sick with pain. Im anxiouse, I want answers, but I can not ask the questions that desire them. I would be a jerk to do so, a looser, faithless... But the question I must ask myself is 'do I need answers?' Well TraV, do you...? No! I trust in the hearts of man and walk believing in the power of the one and only God. The Bright Morning Star, ohh, how that I long to look upon the sunrise with the one I love sitting next to me, simply in the presence of them, no words, just gestures and smiles, knowing the love that lay before and within us. Well, am I being random enough or have I been figured out by now? You see what is on my mind, put me to peace than!

Dont mind me, I simply rant. No comment required.
TraV